Beginnings
On a rainy November day, Pittsburgh was as
miserable and grey as a misanthrope could ever want.
On days like today, Scott Sherwood usually thought
about Nantucket and his teenage years, the golden summers spent at Aunt Agatha's. His
"running buddy" Todd had his own catboat and they spent the sunny days sailing
and the rainy ones gambling with the summer tourists; the catboat was Todd's due to a
particularly bullheaded mainland college swell who thought he could get the better of a
Sherwood and his poker pal.
Of course off season Nantucket was a different place,
but the seashore had a certain austere beauty, even on cold winter days: the dash and
swirl of the pewter waves, the rattling sea oats, the damp, dark dunes and sharp rocks,
the crying seabirds swooping and diving for fish, the sharp odor of brine and salt.
Pittsburgh had a grey quality even on clear days, due to the steel mills belching smoke
from the Lend-
Maybe he was just getting old.
It was a particularly revolting thought.
As he rounded the corner to Isabella Street, he saw a
bright yellow taxicab waiting in front of the radio store downstairs from WENN. In a
moment, a tall figure, his trenchcoat flying, had emerged from the building and had
clambered into the taxi, which then took off down the street.
Scott smiled suddenly. Maybe the day was getting
brighter after all.
He entered the front door briskly, whistling
something nondescript, to be rewarded by Gertie's glare from under her headset as she
listened to someone on the phone. As he passed Studio A he could see Jeff and Hilary
glowering at each other as they performed The Hands of Time. He glanced at his
watch; he still had five minutes before he had to be back on, and he planned to use that
time profitably.
He excused himself to Mr. Eldridge, who was
sweeping the hall in front of the office, and went striding around the corner, past the
Men's Lounge, and directly to the writer's room, where he rapped sharply on the door and
then just walked in.
"BettyBettyBetty-" he began.
He'd learned to observe a situation quickly during
his chequered career--
There were more and more times like these during the
past two months that Scott wished he could put time in reverse. His miscalculation was
again going to cost him.
"What is it you need, Scott?" Betty asked
coolly. She had risen from her usual seat at the typewriter and was sorting script pages
into several piles, each sheet snapping down with a deft movement that alone should have
told Scott he had come at a bad time.
"Just looking for my script for Hope Springs
Eternal," Scott amended quickly, still in the doorway with his hand on the knob.
"Kinda wanted to look it over before I went on the air."
Betty replied sharply, "Why not say what you
intended, Scott? What you meant to say was 'I was planning to ask you to dinner since I
saw Victor leaving for Washington again.' Wasn't that it, Scott?" He swallowed, not
answering. "I'm not interested." She thrust the script at him.
"Goodbye."
And with that she put her hand on the inner knob and
pushed the door shut with him behind it, leaving him in the hallway taking deep breaths
and berating himself for his stupidity.
She stood on the other side of the door with her back
pressed against it, her hand still on the knob, fighting tears. She'd been unpardonably
rude--
That isn't fair! she told herself fiercely. Victor's
doing important work. It's right of him to be so preoccupied with it.
The same way he was always preoccupied with
something.
"...and here you are, all alone again on a
Friday night," her memory taunted her.
When you love someone you have to make sacrifices,
she argued to herself. Victor's made his and now I have to make mine. After all, he is
back, at least. It's all like it was before.
No, it wasn't. Tears filled her eyes. If he'd only
say something.
Memory whispered again, but in a male voice this
time. "Hey, Betty...
He lied to me! she said to herself angrily, knowing
she wasn't referring to that pathetic fib Scott had told a few minutes ago, but the
falsehood that had hurt, the one about knowing Victor.
And yet he could have left WENN any number of times,
taking the money eventually earmarked for the Victor Comstock Memorial Fund. He'd saved
them from financial ruin, fought Rollie Pruitt, stopped Kurt Holstrom. When his deception
was found out, he could have turned tail and run, but he hadn't. And when Hilary's heart
had been trampled by Pavla's treachery and Jeff's secret, it was Scott who had filled in
some kind of void.
How much did one have to do to make up for a lie?
Her head was throbbing. She reached into her purse
for some aspirin, then cautiously stepped out into the hallway. Mr. Eldridge had finished
sweeping and she walked up the hall unmolested to get a drink from the water cooler,
swallowing the aspirin with one gulp of the tepid water.
As she lowered the cup, her eyes flickered toward the
interior of Studio A. From Hilary's preening stance, it looked as if she were doing the
opening piece of dialog from Hope Springs Eternal. Scott was standing next to her,
waiting for his cue. Usually, he liked to rag Hilary most of the time during her series,
making faces as she read or doing something odd to his dialog that would throw her off
balance. Today he just looked weary.
"Did I do what I think I just did?"
"Yeah...
Scripts did not get written by standing around doing
nothing.
* * * * *
By the time his dinner hour came, Scott was in a
better mood. He signed off from the news with a flourish, leaving Jeff, Eugenia, and Gus
Kahana to The Six O'Clock Circus, and made a brief stop in the Men's Lounge.
As he came out he collided abruptly with Betty.
"Hey, watch it!" he protested before seeing
who it was, then backed up a step, swallowing. "I...
She had on her coat and the perky little blue hat he
had noticed earlier, carrying the delicate beaded purse. Victor or no Victor, she had
decided somewhere in the midst of typing The Crimson Blade, she was going out to
dinner somewhere besides the Buttery. Perhaps even somewhere a little expensive.
"I guess neither of us were," she said
lightly, taking a few steps away. Then she turned, facing him. "Scott, I was rude to
you earlier and I apologize. There was no reason for me to take out my bad mood on you. So
I was wondering...
He emitted a short, snorting laugh. "Heck, just
what you expected, Betty Roberts. I was going to ask you out to dinner because I saw
Victor leave for Washington."
"I see." Her voice was expressionless.
He tried to salvage the situation by explaining,
"It's a new place that I tried this afternoon. Good food, reasonable prices. If
you're ever interested--
He started up the corridor, and for a moment he was
surprised that Betty followed; then he kicked himself mentally--
Something kept him from taking the stairs, and as he
leaned against the wall waiting for the elevator, he was startled to hear Betty ask
casually, "So what sort of restaurant is it?"
"Huh? Oh...
"Better than Chow Lo's?"
Scott laughed, thinking of the Chinese place over
which the Aldwych Academy of Drama was located. "Only if you don't like greasy egg
rolls and overcooked chop suey."
The elevator opened and the elevator boy drew aside
the gate to let them enter. Neither of them said a word as the elevator descended, but as
they emerged into the street, both turned to the right.
After a few moments, Scott joked lightly, "If I
didn't know better, I'd say you were following me."
"I thought I'd take your advice," Betty
answered to his astonishment. "I feel like having something...
"Hey, I like Chinese and...
"Not at all, " she said briskly, in a tone
that warned him not to press his luck. He didn't.
He liked walking with her. She didn't mince like a
lot of the women he had gone out with, but had a firm decisive stride despite wearing high
heels. The rain had stopped and it was merely chilly, and as they turned the corner on to
Sandusky Street, he began to feel a little better.
"There," he said presently, pointing out a
building across the street and still further down the road that had an elaborately gold-
Betty followed his gaze, then her eyes drifted
further to the left to where another fresh awning was just being rolled in, a red and
black one with book emblems decorating it. "Well, that shows you how long I haven't
been this way--
"This one's just a used bookstore," Scott
said offhandedly.
"Even better," she smiled, glancing at him
briefly, and his throat contracted. "I love old books."
They were almost abreast of the restaurant and by now
Scott would have crossed the street. Instead, he said impulsively, "We could stop and
go inside if you like."
Betty bit her lip to smother a smile at the
"we," but discovered she wasn't actually angry at his use of the plural.
"That's all right, Scott. I'm sure you're hungry."
He silently begged his already rolling stomach not to
growl aloud. "No problem, Betty. C'mon, take a look."
The wide wooden door with its glass painted with
another book emblem and the big front window scattered with an assortment of fat and thin
volumes were too much of a temptation for her. "Well--
He opened the door for her, then held back as she
immediately wandered into the aisles of close shelves. The store had been open only a
month and was already filled with the pleasant yet musty odor of books kept too long in
people's attics and closets. The shelves were chock full and even overflowing in places.
He itched to follow her, feeling lost in this ocean
of books, but remembered Maple's advice in time and began describing a circuit around the
store. At one point the clerk stocking one last shelf in the back of the store looked at
him curiously, and he realized he was facing shelves full of Victorian love stories in
their floridly gold-marked bindings. He immediately edged away and found Western stories
more to his taste.
Then he heard Betty exclaim, "Oh, my gosh!"
He found her standing in the aisle with a red-bound
volume in her hands, smiling and turning the pages slowly. "Whatcha got there,
Betty?"
"St. Nicholas," she said brightly,
as she looked through the book.
"Little early for Christmas books, isn't
it?" he said with a grin, knowing Betty's love of that holiday.
"It's not a..." Betty's eyes met his with
astonishment. "Scott Sherwood, do you mean to tell me you never read St. Nicholas
as a child?"
He looked blank. "No. Mostly read my dad's
stuff. Fishing books, junk like that."
She explained, "It was a children's magazine
started back in the 1870s. It stopped publication about the time I moved here to
Pittsburgh. I used to get it when I was a little girl, and I had my dad's bound copies
from when he and my uncle Rick were boys." He still looked perplexed, so she added,
"Bound copies like this," and held the book up. "If you sent back six
months worth of copies back to the publisher with a small fee they would have them bound
for you."
Scott cocked his head. "Okay, but why?"
"So you could read them over again." Betty
rolled her eyes in exasperation. "They were full of profiles of foreign lands and
poetry and the most wonderful serial stories and...
Scott took the volume from her, checked inside the
front cover. "Only fifty cents, Betty Roberts--
"Oh, Scott..." But her eyes flickered down
at the book, the temptation evident.
"Aw, go ahead," he urged, still not
understanding what was so special, but knowing it had made her happier than he'd seen her
in weeks.
"Then I will!" she said decidedly, plucking
the book from his hands and taking it up to the young clerk behind the counter. She fished
in her purse for fifty cents in nickels and dimes, handed it to him.
"Could...
Betty shook her head, trying not to laugh. "I
think that would be okay."
They crossed the street and went into Ming Garden,
and for a moment basked in the warmth of steam heat and the red and gold interior. A
smiling man in a black robe and soft slippers showed them to a quiet table for two in a
far corner of the restaurant. Betty pursed her lips as she saw the intimate location, but
Scott threw up his hands. "I swear I didn't bribe him, Betty Roberts."
"I'll bet," she said drily, but her heart
wasn't in it.
"Table no good?" asked the headwaiter,
uncomprehending, and to Betty's surprise Scott spoke a few words in Chinese to him and the
man bowed and smiled and left them alone.
"You speak Chinese?" she asked, one eyebrow
raised.
He shrugged. "Enough to order dinner and find
the men's room."
In a few minutes a waiter had returned and served
them water, leaving menus on the table.
"Anything you'd recommend?" Betty asked
casually, turning the parchment pages.
"I had kung pau chicken this afternoon--
The conversation remained on that comfort level as
the minutes passed and Betty glanced around at the rice-paper paintings that decorated the
crimson-and-gold wallpaper. Finally their waiter returned and she ordered something safe
and relatively inexpensive--
When the waiter had left again, Scott tapped the St.
Nicholas that Betty had set next to her. "Mind if I take a look?"
"Go ahead," she said, and he opened the
volume in the center of the table, so she could read it upside down.
"Not bad," he said after a few minutes of
thumbing through the pages of fine print decorated with occasional black and white
engravings. "I thought it would be full of pictures...
"Oh, maybe the last few were like that,"
she said, shrugging. "The older ones are the best."
He continued to look through it and Betty smiled
suddenly, tapping her finger on a page. "That was my favorite part."
Scott read the ornate Victorian header at the top.
"'The St. Nicholas League.'"
"Reader contributions. They offered prizes--
Scott arched his eyebrows and teased offhandedly,
"I'm surprised at you, Betty. I would have thought you would have had a gold badge as
well."
"I didn't have time to compete for badges any
longer. By then I was-" Then Betty stopped, looking apologetic. "Just old family
history. Never mind."
Scott said quietly, "I don't mind."
It had to be a lie. But if it was, it was a good
lie--
She began to talk and he fell into her world, a
sun-drenched summer world like his memories of Nantucket...
* * * * *
"Betty? Betty!"
Oh, no.
Betty sighed, shoulders sagging, her head tilted back
in exasperation. She thought she'd escaped.
It was a broiling summer's day and, having risen
early to clean George's room--
"That David Roberts...
Betty, had she not been such a "sweet, polite
girl" might had told them a bit snippily that still waters didn't run at all. They
went on so about it, for weeks! Well, why shouldn't Dad buy a car? The Bugle was
doing great back then--
"Bettttttt-ty!"
She sighed. So here it was summer--
Maybe Mother would think she'd gone to Rachel's
house. She might have, too, had Rachel not gone so silly over boys in the past six months.
Betty had many boys she had gone through school with, and she liked a lot of them, but--
She scrunched closer in the lee of one of the haymow
doors, and began reading again. She'd found a volume from 1902 and was right in the middle
of a new Charlotte Sedgewick story...
"Elizabeth Ann Roberts!" Her mother's voice
was directly below the haymow door. "Your sister told me she saw you come in here!
Now, come down this minute."
Betty slapped the book closed. She'd "get"
Patty later.
And that was a promise.
Grumbling under her breath, she tucked the volume
under her arm and rose, brushing off the hay and straightening out her hair and dress; for
some reason, even in her "play" clothes Mother expected her to be tidy. Then she
sidled around the door and presented herself at the opening of the haymow.
"Hi, Mother!" she said, forcing a smile.
"I'm sorry, I didn't hear you call. Did you need me?"
"Are you up there reading again?"
her mother demanded. She had her hand on her aproned hips and did not look angry, just
slightly exasperated.
"Mother, I thought that you wanted me to be
well-educated," Betty responded, inwardly cringing. It was always the same old story.
"Well, of course, dear. But all you seem to do
is read. You need fresh air, and you need to have some social contact, not always have
your nose stuck in a book."
"That's why I came to read outside," Betty
explained. "The fresh air."
"Why not go visit your friends?"
"They're busy." Betty didn't want to
explain Rachel to her mother. Mother would only think that it was a good thing that a girl
of her age to start being interested in boys in a different way (as long as she listened
to the obligatory hour-long lecture about the things you must not allow a boy to do!).
"Well, why not help Patty and Lenora,
then?" Clare Roberts didn't understand her daughter. She was so talented at so many
things, but there were things she should have been interested in and simply wasn't. She
was a competent seamstress, but really didn't like to sew; could cook but didn't like it;
adored babies but wasn't a bit maternal.
Betty couldn't help making a face--
Clare had seen the face. "Well, never
mind." Betty relaxed. "I have an errand I'd like you to run for me. I need you
to go to Mrs. Conway's house and pick up a receipt."
Not Elmira Conway! Mrs. Conway would want to talk her
ear off while she went rummaging for the recipe in the capacious cigar box she used to
keep the scribbled bits of paper and newspaper clippings in.
But Betty sighed and said dutifully, "Okay,
Mother," and then carefully climbed down the ladder--
"Could you put this inside for me, Mother?"
she asked, holding out the St. Nicholas. "I'll put it away when I get back,
And I'll head straight for Mrs. Conway's--
She made sure to repeat "recipe" rather
than "receipt," hoping someday to break Mother of using that hopelessly
old-fashioned term, but Clare only stared at her in horror.
"My goodness, you can put it up yourself when
you come inside to put some shoes and stockings on and wash your face and hands and feet.
I'm not having Elmira think I let you run around like a wild Indian. Going visiting
barefoot at your age! Betty, really..."
So it was that she set out ten minutes later,
glowering, her face--
She'd figuratively, at least, cooled off a little by
the time she reached the Conways' house, which was at the edge of Main Street. She opened
the gate and went under the arbor of tea roses, which looked as wilted as she felt, to the
back door and knocked.
Her schoolmate Sally lived here, but she didn't
expect Sally to answer the door; she was staying with her cousins in Indianapolis for the
entire month of July. Betty felt envious. Certainly there were fun things that could be
done in Indianapolis in the summer: visits to the museum, or trips to the picture show,
not tramping the hot streets of Elkhart in the middle of a heat wave!
She was surprised when old Mr. Conway answered
the door--
"That's all right," he said pleasantly.
"That raisin cake is Elmira's favorite, I'm sure I can find it. But I'm not sure
she'll want it to leave the house--
Betty, still feeling a bit rebellious, wanted to say
she did, but answered politely, "Oh, no sir."
"Well, then you sit down right here and cool
off," he instructed, "and I'll find the receipt and some paper and a pencil.
Shouldn't take but a minute to copy. My word, hon, why did you go and wear shoes and
stockings on a day like today? In my day young folks like you went barefoot all
summer."
Betty said, with feeling, "My mother made
me," and the elderly man laughed.
"Oh, I still remember how that was, young lady.
Say, drinking glasses are in that cupboard over there." He pointed across the kitchen
to one of the glass-fronted cabinets. "You go fetch a glass and help yourself to some
lemonade from the icebox. Just mind you close the door tight. The ice is melting fast
enough as it is!"
"Yes, sir!" Betty said a little more
happily, and in a few minutes she was sipping cold lemonade while copying out Elmira
Conway's famous receipt--
She was cheerful enough when she left the Conway
house, having found out that old Mr. Conway was a veteran of the Civil War and knew
some of the most wonderful stories, and upon leaving the yard, she made two decisions.
One, since she wasn't "visiting" any longer, she'd take off her shoes and
stockings, and second, since she was already in town and her mother probably wouldn't make
the cake until tonight when it was cooler, she would go visit her dad.
Main Street was busy, so she kept to the sidewalk,
which was cooler anyway, covered most of the route by the huge multicolor striped awnings
the various stores used to keep the sun from their windows. She peeked in at the fresh
grapes--
The Bugle was only a small newspaper, and you
could tell that right away. Against one wall was the linotype machine Dad had gone out on
a limb to buy, and Rob Danner was busy setting type right now, his back to her. In the
back was the big press and to the right was storage, more typecases, paper out in big
rolls.
Four desks sat in the middle of the room, all
scattered with copy; her dad had an office in the back, but he preferred to work at one of
the desks out here. One desk was for Danny Kowalski, who was the Bugle's one and
only official reporter--
To her surprise, Martha wasn't at her desk--
Betty stood very quietly in back of the railing that
separated the work area from where the public could come in, buy papers, order
advertising, or pay for a handbill to be printed, as the Bugle still offered that
old-fashioned service. She supposed she should leave.
Then Dad said, "It's all right, Martha. I'll
take care of everything. See you next week. Good-bye."
When David Roberts looked up, she waved at him.
"Hi, Dad. I was just on an errand and wanted to say hi."
"I'd ask you to come on back, but I've got a bit
of a problem."
"Is Miss Haywood okay?"
"She's fine, but her sister Eunice fell and
broke her ankle. She wants to stay on with her until Sunday and make sure she's doing well
in a cast. Meanwhile..." and he spread his arms in exasperation, "I have a paper
to get out and now it looks like I'm going to have to write Martha's stories as well as my
own."
"I guess that means you'll be home late,"
Betty said wistfully, and the note in her voice was such that he stopped turning back to
the chaos on his desk.
"What's your problem, chickadee?"
Betty shook her head. Dad looked tired already, his
sleeves rolled up, perspiration glistening on his forehead. "It's okay. You're
busy."
He walked forward until he met her at the other side
of the rail. "Never that busy. What's wrong?"
She held her breath, trying to control what she would
say, then it all burst out. "It's summer vacation. Isn't it okay if I spend it the
way I want as long as I do my chores? Maybe I don't want to listen to Rachel talk
about boys or help Patty with her quilt. Maybe I just want to sit in the haymow and read!"
He bit off a smile, knowing immediately what was
going on, and repeated the father's litany: "Your mother only wants what's best for
you."
"How does she know?" Betty couldn't believe
her own voice. She sounded so resentful and churlish. "She's not me."
One rather ink-spotted hand reached out to smooth her
hair. "Betty..."
This time her voice came out small. "I'm sorry,
Daddy. I sound like such a brat. Mother works terribly hard, and I know she loves me. But
sometimes it's so hard to be patient when I just don't care about the things she wants me
to do. I know sewing and baking and keeping a garden are useful, and when she asks me to
do things, I do my best. I'd just rather be reading. Or at least writing."
He smoothed his beard, gazing into space for a
moment, then turned to thoughtfully regard Martha Haywood's desk. "Chickadee...
The unobtrusive Chinese waiter in his black robe and
little cap returned, carrying two steaming plates on the flat of one of his arms. He set
one down before Betty, the second before Scott, then, watching Betty's consternation as
she turned over a set of chopsticks set before her, vanished for a moment, then returned
with a fork. Scott just took up the chopsticks and skillfully picked up a piece of meat.
"So?" he asked, after finishing it,
"what happened? I take it you pinch hit for Miss Hayward?"
Betty had just picked up her fork. "Yes,
exactly. Eunice--
Scott arched his eyebrows. "And what did your
mother think?"
Betty suddenly laughed. "That day she phoned
about three hours later in a panic, telling Dad she'd sent me to the Conways' and I hadn't
come back. Dad apologized to her--
"Why, Betty Roberts..." and Scott laughed,
too. "So what happened after she came back?"
"Martha?" Betty blinked at him, lowering
her full fork back to her plate. "Martha turned sixty that year, and she didn't get
around as well as she used to. So when the county fair rolled around in September, she
took advantage of my job training. I reported on all the items of feminine interest: the
jam and jelly contest, the quilting bee, things like that. It wasn't much, but it's how I
started writing professionally. I'm not sure Mother liked it, but she usually didn't
contradict Dad's decisions."
Her eyes darkened and she concentrated on her dinner
for several minutes. Then she finished, "Turned out my learning what to do was a good
thing. Next month...
Scott tried to remember where he was in 1929. He was
27 or 28 then, running scams when he could manage them, working hard when he
couldn't, but not taking much seriously. The Depression hadn't made much of an impact on
his perapatetic life. But at thirteen he'd been footloose and fancy free, not helping
support the family.
Just when he thought he knew every facet of Betty
Roberts, something else came up.
But he merely asked, offhand, "And what happened
to the car everyone made such a fuss about?"
"Oh, good heavens, we had it for years, until
Dad got his Packard in '37. By that time the roof leaked and the mechanic had it held
together with spit and bailing wire, or so he said." She cocked her head at him and
smiled. "Scott Sherwood, I can't believe you sat here and enjoyed that long-winded
story. I would have thought the only person who'd listen to that would be a member of the
family."
Scott would have liked to say that someday he wanted
to be a part of Betty's family, the formidable Clare Roberts notwithstanding.
But he merely grinned. "Hey, Betty, you've had a
long writing career. Let's face it, in the storytelling department, you're aces."
She blushed, smiling and lowering her eyes to the
food, returning to her dinner. "Thanks."
Unobtrusively, he lifted the chopsticks in silent
salute to the St. Nicholas still open on the table, offered his own silent thanks,
and returned to his meal.